blue october

Hello guys, love to see you again this month. but this month is not a great month, a lot of bluey things happened this month. First, my 2 years in a row classmate and also my great friend passed away this month. it was just too shocking, until now i still cant believe that he's not here with us anymore. he's such a good friend, a good boy, our laugh maker. everybody's still missing him a lot right now, his facebook profile is full with walls from friends who are missing him alot. i really still cant believe that he's gone.. and here's my photo with him, taken on my last time seeing him, and it was on my sweet 17th birthday :'(

he's standing right next to me, on the left :')
farewell thaa, i love you a lot! missing you also...

and the next bluey thing that happened this month is my relationship with my boyf is getting more and more fragile everyday. there will always be a fight everyday. it was just too tiring. but we, well i, just cant let our relationship go that easily. sorry if i'm being cheesy but, i'm already too addicted to him, all my everyday routine is mostly connected to him, and well it's been 1.5 years, it's hard to let go. just about 30 minutes ago i was having another fight with him, i was bad i know, my anger just flow and burst without even a warning. i don't know what makes him so under control, because i just scold him, mad at him, and even yelled at him, but he's still shut his mouth so tightly and still can control his emotion. that's really amazed me but made me feel mad at the same time, i want to hear his thoughts soooo bad, but he rarely shared it to me :( i think he's just being nice, to avoid my anger haha.... i really dont know what to do, i hate him sooo much, but i do love him too at the same time. i really didn't want to let him go, but i just too tired of this kinda situation :( what do you think i should do? taking a break is really not an option, we already tried it more than once, and well even the definition of taking a break is not really working haha we still exchange text messages, having phone calls etc :p like i said, our daily routine is just too addictive for both of us. tons of patience is needed, i need more supply of patience. the higher we stand, there'll be more more obstacles who's going to disturb us, right? :) i hope that things will get better in time, and everything will be fine again, amen.

and the third thing that made me feel blue this month is the fact of SIMAK UI will be held on March 14th, 2010, and it's the same date of USM 1 ITB (13-14 March 2010), goossssh it's 142 days more!! i think i'm not gonna be ready, but will you pray for the best for me? FKG UI 2010 amin! i'll try for the best, there are zenius, bta 45, many books and my private tutor teacher who will be there to guide me trough the road of simak ui 2010 :) i hope everything will be just the way i wanted it to be, like it always does, amen! and i hope the best for everybody too of course :) GOODLUCK 2010! we can do it, yes we can!


love,
R

september ceriaa!

September emg mau gimanapun tetep paling ceria deh hehe and for this year, i have 2 special 17(s). First, i will be celebrating my17 months anniversary with my lovely boyf yeaaaaay! and second celebrating my super sweet 17 :--) dan tau gaa? itu 2-2nya ada di 2 hari selasa yang beturutan, so how cool is that? :D terus udah gitu bertepatan sama bulan ramadhan jugaaa, wah emg diberkahi banget deh amiiiiin amiiin ya Allah! i'm more than happy more than excited hihi semoga nanti emang beneran bakal se menyenangkan yang udah gue bayangkan, amiiin. how i loooooove this months just like i looove holidays :D september emg beneran bulan favorite gue!

LOVE,
Rara

happy fasting month!

udah lamaaaa banget ya gue ga buka blog gue sendiri hehe lately lagi banyak banget problemo sih huu tapi sekarang insya Allah udah baik lagi, i hope that everything will be back to normal again soon :)

eh hari ini hari pertama di bulan ramadhan ya, marhaban ya ramadhan! walopun gue hari ini ga puasa dikarenakan gondongan huuuuu padahal gue ikutan sahur loh, terus tadi tiba2 jam 3 gitu pala gue pusiiing banget terus langsung disuruh makan sama mister bawelelelel bernama kahfi munandar jadi gue langsung makan roti dan minum obat, walopun gondongannya malah jadi tambah sakit secara otomatis karena makan zzz tapi udah mendingan alhamdulillah sekarang :D


ini foto gue pas hari selasa, kahfi lagi nengokin gue dirumah kan ya, gara2 gondongan itu disebabkan oleh virus jadi menyebar lewat udara sooo gue pake masker hijau kayak gt deeh. jadi ga keliatan deh gondongannya hehe jadi ga malu, soalnya gue beneran jadi kayak monster pipinya gede sebelah gitu hahahazzzz





wow sekarang udah hampir buka puasa looh, ga berasa ya waktu cepeeeeet banget jalannya hehe happy fasting month ya folks! minal'aidin wal fa'idzin, selamat berbukaaaaa! :D

love,
rara

My Kind of Boy

i copy paste this blog post from my friend's blog, dayen's, and she got this from istina's, serra's, and delia's blog, just try it
Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
If you're a girl - post this as "my kind of boy"

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
of course yess

2. Smart?
yep, smart mind can lead to many fun things

3. Preferred age?
older, even if it's only 1 day older haha

4. Preferred height?
taller than me of course, i cant imagine having a shorter boyf hihi

5. How about sense of humor?
it's def a must

6. How about piercing?
nope, thank you

7. Accepts you for who you are?
yang ini harus lah, i'm a slightly complicated girl you know hehe

8. Pink hair?
ha? be a good boy aja lah haha

9. Mushy or no?
it depends on why he was being mushy for, hey a boy is still a human haha

10. Thin or fat?
fat! haha not too fat i mean, proporsional ajaa

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
average aja deh

12. Long hair or short hair?
short, a guy in a long hair is not cool

13. Plastic or metal?
hard as metal dong, dia harus bisa ngejagain gue haha

14. Smells good?
harus!

15. Smoker?
nope nope

16. Drinker?
1000000000000% no

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
yayaya

18. Muscular?
asal ga kayak ade rai aja sih gpp

19. Plays piano?
i adoreeee musician

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
yep yep

21. Plays violin?
extra cool!

22. Sings very good?
so he can sings to me everynight on the phone hihi

23. Vain?
hmmm

24. With glasses?
a guy with glasses is cool, but if not thats okay too

25. With braces?
cuteey

26. Shy type?
boleh deh kan gue juga pemalu hihi

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
in the middle of both

28. Active or passive?
active

29. Tight or bomb?
haha maksudnya?

30. Singer or dancer?
singer

31. Stunner?
have to be

32. Hiphop?
asal jangan yo yo mamen aja

33. Earrings?
nope, i prefer gentleman with no jeweleries

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?
haha prefer not

35. Dimples?
cutey

36. Bookworm?
lalala nice, asal ga terlalu book mania aja

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
haha if he can play his part well, why not?

38. Playful?
playful could be fun, but not for player

39. Flirt?
yoww

40. Poem writer?
that could be sweet

41. Serious?
have to be, playful but serious at the same time

42. Campus crush?
yeeah

43. Painter?
why not

44. Religious?
yep, biar ngingetin gue solat :)

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
no, childish

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
deff no

47. Speaks 20 languages?
so he can talk to me with differents languages everynight hihi

48. Loyal or faithful?
both

49. Good kisser?
hmm

50. Loves children?
1000% yess

SCHOOLYMPIC CARNIVAL 2009

hey readers, tahun ini angkatan gue 2010 bakalan ngadain acara kompetisi antar sekolah di soemantri brojonegoro dari tanggal 21-25 july 2009. jangan lupa dateng ya! we have a lot to offers, trust us! jangan lupa juga nonton closing nya tanggal 25 july, because there'll be my last saman performance :'( so i promise you, it'll be a super great performance because we'll give our best. jangan lupa dateng yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

SCHOOLYMPIC CARNIVAL 2009

hey bloggers, long time no see :)

just like my post tittle, first i want to say, 'Hey blogger! long time no see...' hahaha yeah it has been a quite long time since my last post don't you think? how are you readers? i hope all of you guys are in a very good shape, I'm good myself :)

yeah so far my life's still good enough, I'm now an official 12th grade student, XII IPA H is my new class. well there's so much differences about this class compared to my previous class, maybe because we're still new and still not knowing each other very well, this class is soooo calm and really is always in study mode atmosphere. even if there was no teacher teaching in my class, my new classmates will be still on their sit, sitting nicely and doing something really 'anak 8ers' yeaaaaah it's studying, and oh my I'm SHOCK! maybe this is what it feels like to be 12th grader hahaha but i guess it's great, i must study hard this year, my cool yellow jacket is waiting for me next year hahaha amin! so this kind of atmosphere is very good for me, but hmmm I'll always miss my crazy XI IPA I for sure......... :'( how about your new class readers? come on tell me all about it :)

Hello Blogers! :-)

Insomnia strikes agaaaaaaaain huuu kalo udah begini jadi kangen banget sama boyf, dan dia sekarang dengan indah nya pasti sedang bermimpi sambil tertidur lelap, memang dia itu kebo tingkat dewa sodara2 hahaha but i do love him like crazy ;)

Readers, tau ga tadi masa ya gue adalah nyaris keracunan! jadi gue makan potato and cheese (yang pake kraft quick melt yang kayak di iklan itu loh hehe), biasanya sih enak2 aja yaa enak banget malah, eh tadi tiba2 semua rasa enak itu berubah menjadi rasa alumunium! dan ya Allah kalian mesti tau ampe sekarang aja rasa logam nya itu ga pergi2 dari mulut guee ckck alhasil tadi gue langsung beti makan dan muntahin semuanya, yaa daripada gue meninggal keracunan ya ga sih?hahaha gue udah lemes banget deh sumpah, jadi trauma makan renmakanan begitu, beneran ga pengen lagi deh makanan yang pake alumunium ckck

hmm it's already 1:14 am in the morning, and i'm kind of sleepy sooo i should go to sleep now hehe bye Readers!

Love,
Rara